When I close my eyes to this paradox place...

What else...

I think that's it for now.I think I'll upload a few pictures tomorrow from kareoke.  It's going to be so bad ass. 

I CAN'T WAIT.

Maybe I'll add more after I finish my school work.

Trish-Trish<3

So, I have an insane dislike for chem. right now. 

I'm going to try not to go into it.

In other news:  I updated my profile today.  The one from two years ago was SO bad.  I was not good with profiles at the age of 15/16, I guess.  This is how bad it was:

I'm turning 16 in may...I'm in band and in the marching band...I have a dog, but really want a cat...I LOVE Avenged Sevenfold, My favorite members are Synyster and Zacky because they're hot and The Rev because he's so adorable!  I'm currently teaching myself to play the guitar and I will eventually buy an electric guitar.

Granted, while the talk of Syn, Zacky, and Rev is true, it seemed out of place and awkward.

I love my icon today.  I wish I was that CD.

Who doesn't?

So, for right now, I think I'm going to skip my 11th grade summary.  I never really did finish 10th's anyway.  Perhaps tomorrow.  (As if someone cares or is interested anyway)

Maybe I should talk about last week.  It was, perhaps, the greatest week of my life so far.

My vacation plans this year managed to get really screwed up because of summer school.  My mom, brother, and grandma left me home and went to Daytona for a week.  It was magical.  I had people over everyday and (with my mom's permission of course) had 2 or 3 parties.  I did bend the rules a little here and there though, but nothing too illegal.  I was able to have a band practice with no one yelling to be quiet; I played rockband for almost 24 hours; I really hope I'm able to do it again someday.  Even if I am moving out in a year or two.  We'll have to see how those plans work out though.

Zig-Zig is suppose to come over and help me with chem.  Today should be a good day.

The next four days will be even better. 

Tomorrow (Friday), after I finish my school work, Ziggle and I are going to hang out at the park to hear my friend Cady sing in Lilburn Idol.  That's going to be really fun.  I know it will be. 

On Saturday, Ziggle is coming over again at, like, 2:30, and from there we're going to go pick up Adrish and go to Suno's to see our friend Liz.  Then, we're going to karaoke.  Zig-Zig is exempt from singing, but he's happy about that.

Sunday, I'm going to makeup some Chem work, but on Monday, if I'm ahead enough, Mommy and I are going to go see Hangover.

I just wrote a freaking letter ,to my friend in Cali, on her facebook wall. 

It was intense.

Anyway, I need to start my work. 

So long for now~

Trish-Trish<3

I told my mom I was catching up on my chemistry.... what bullshit.

I hate these online classes;  they really do suck epically.  

Just 29 more days I suppose, maybe less...

I guess I can write about sophomore year now, yes?

I'm just writing about my years so I don't forget.  I'm really bad about that.

Anyway, sophomore year was probably the most interesting so far.  I had my first boyfriend, first kiss, made new friends, almost failed a few classes, and did some other stupid stuff. (No drugs mind you.  I'll explain soon.)

So, the beginning of sophomore year:  I go to my normal place in the morning go throughout my day and then at lunch I meet this kid named Zach.  He's friends with all of my other friends and somehow it took me this long to meet him.  We had the same advisement so we walked together and then by the 2nd week we were able to walk to almost all of our classes together.  Crazy, right?

Well, we eventually started going out.  That in itself is a REALLY interesting story.

So, one day I called him out of border ( at this time he never answered his  phone so I felt pretty freaking special when he answered) and he was playing video games with his brothers and neighbors.  Well, he ended up losing, so his brothers were all no one loves you and he said, "You still love me, don't you Tricia?"  Of course I said yes.  I love all my friends, FO SHO.  So his brother’s snide remark back was, "then why don't you marry her?"  "Tricia, will you marry me?"  "Sure!"

At this time I really liked Zach, so that was my obvious response.  I'm lame like that.  So, we started making fake wedding plans and such.  A few hours later he texted me and said, "Sorry the wedding is off, my mom said no."  I didn't bother telling my mom about it.  I don't even wanna know how she would have reacted.  He texted me again later that he liked me and the rest is history... kind of.

Sadly, I broke up with him a month or so later.  There were a lot of components that causes me to break up with him sadly. 

I was easily persuaded, I guess I still am for the most part, two years ago.  When I told my mom of my new found relationship she stared at me and walked away, which made me feel like she didn't approve.  Then there was school getting harder.  After having a year off with tech, being thrown back into 'real' work really messed me up.  I was almost failing 1 or 2 classes and I didn't know what to do.  Mom had left to go gambling with her friends and I didn't really have anyone to turn to with my given situation.  I don't blame her for not being there, it was just a bad coincidence that I broke down the weekend she wasn't home.  I also had some peer pressure, but I won't go into who or what.

I broke up with him over AIM.  It was one of the worst decisions I have ever made and I know I'm a coward for doing it.  We fought and bickered for weeks afterwards, but eventually things got better and he got a new girlfriend or two.  Granted, I was angry because he didn't tell me.  We were back to being good friends and I was hurt he told everyone, but me.  I suppose I can understand why.  

We're best friends now and I wouldn't have it any other way.  He's my Ziggleybuff and I love him.

Moving on from that, we'll go to band related things.  I had my band trip that year.  We went to NY.  It was amazing.  

That's all I really feel like writing right now...

Maybe I'll add more later today.

Trish-Trish<3

So,   I've had this account for years and never got around to doing anything with it.  Sad, yes? 

I'm going to change that now though.  

Where to start...

Freshman year sounds good. 

...we'll put it in a nutshell; nothing important happened that year anyway.... and I’m lazy like that.


 

I ended my summer with band camp (I started it with summer school).  This basically was what my entire freshman year revolved around.  I actually wanted to be a band director once, but I digress. 

Band camp was a week that was two weeks before school got back in. I was the only freshman to enter my section and it seemed like none of them liked me very much.  I was fat and annoying; looking back though, I can see why they hated me so much. I was also really immature. Granted, while all of this was/is true, I don’t see why they would blame things on me. I was new to the experience and being put down like that after I felt like I was doing something right after an important competition was neither cool nor appreciated.  Not everyone was mean to me. Cindy and Leah talked to me sometimes. I suppose it was my own fault for isolating myself at games and being shy. Perhaps by acting this way, it made the people in my section that year not want to get to know me.

Anyway, that year I got to know a senior friend of mine really well. Her name is Hope. She sat with me at lunch and she would hang out with me at games and competitions; she even sat next to me in band class. I think after a while she may have regretted that decision. It seems now like she purposely keeps her distance when she comes for visits to the school. 

 

Oh well, her loss I guess.

 

I had problems with people telling me I wasn’t good enough in band too. I remember one day Winston (RIP) told his fellow tuba player they needed a better euphonium player. That hit me really hard; probably harder than it should have. I was shy and absolutely HATED playing loud all through middle school. I thought that I had started getting better when I started high school and I have. I know that now.

 

While it seems like band had a negative effect on me, I don’t know what I would have done if I hadn’t been able to experience it. Maybe, I would still be the same. I guess we’ll never know.

 

Enough about band; lets move on to the rest of my year.

I was in tech classes as a freshman. I remember getting my course list in 8^th grade and being happy, but then a girl who sat next to me was laughing and saying how only stupid people were put in tech. That made me feel bad about how I was going into high school. That’s why at the end of freshman year I went to my counselor and she talked to my mom and I.   We set a plan and now I’m going to be able to graduate on time AND with a CP diploma. That day was also the day of my first concert. 

 

My Chemical Romance.

 

It was one of the best days of my life.     

Another event that occurred that year was my newly acquired favorite band: Avenged Sevenfold.

 

I fell in love with the album ‘City of Evil’ and have been obsessed ever since.

 
I met a really cool person that year.  Her name is Torie.

She rode my bus and at first I thought she was kind of odd, but after Megan mentioned that she liked anime, we clicked almost automatically.  She was/is my walking to publix buddy and we saw MCR together.  We weren't in the same place, but we found eachother eventually.  She also came to my birthday party.
 

May was probably the best month of school for me. It was the last month of school, my birthday was coming up, and I was no longer going to be a freshman.

 

My birthday was most likely the most bad ass party ever.  You can ask the people who were there.

 

Oh! Here’s a rant:

 

Sun May 13, 2007

So, there's seven days until my birthday. I'll be sixteen. My cake is going to be freaking AMAZING and I don’t know; I guess that’s all...or not.

I have decided to rant about something that’s really ticking me off....

Okay, so every year (except in 7th grade) Megan (an annoying friend of mine) has come to my birthday parties (all of them were FAMILY parties) except when I turned 13; and this year I want my party to be Megan-less, you know?  It just bugs me so much that she comes to EVERYTHING. My mom’s probably going to make me invite her, but I will do anything in my power to stop her from ruining my sweet sixteen party. It really made me mad when in the car ride home from Discover Mills (she was being a real brat that night *) my mom had to mention my party. Which Megan immediately started to tell me how to plan my own party. She was literally telling me what to do, who to invite, ect; and all the people I'm inviting don’t want her there anyway.

   STORY TIME!! : So, we went to the movies the other day and I decided to invite Megan to be nice, right? So when we get there our movie is sold out so we try to decide on another movie. Megan wants to go see ‘In the Land of Women' and I don’t want to go.  I want to see a movie with my mom. So then she says something about me keeping secrets from my mom which almost causes me to cry because I hate lying to my mom. So after she calms down she decides to go to Books a Million while we wait for our movie to start ( which was Fracture, btw) she tries to drag me along (I really wanted to stay with my mom because there were a lot of people around and I don’t like being alone), but I reluctantly go with her. When we're about a quarter of the way there she starts yelling at me for siding with my mom and not siding with her to go 'In the Land of Women’. I turned around and went straight back to my mom.

 

 

Looking back on that day I could have handled things a little different, I guess. I don’t hate Megan as much as I use to. Right now were pretty good friends.  : D

 

One more story/rant and I think I’ll be done for today. 

 

 

Mon May 14, 2007

 

My Elementary School

 

So my mom made me go to a PTA meeting tonight. I found out a lot that I really didn't want to know that was going to happen to the school. I REALLY hate what the new principal is doing. It was bad enough when she got rid of all the knights we had around the school, saying it was a health hazard. Health hazards my ass! I went to that school for 6 freaking years and no one was ever hurt. She’s also expanding the cafeteria wall...which means she’s getting rid of all the gold stars that people worked hard for over the years doing math problems. It just really makes me mad that she’s changing everything.

 

I got to see the teacher I had for 1st, 2nd, and 3rd grade tonight...she didn’t recognize me. I saw my fourth grade teacher tonight also. He saw the concert (MCR) also. It was amazing that he went. He also saw James Blunt and Duran Duran. He finally got his Bunnucula book back from when I was In his class over 5 years ago. He looked really different. He's gotten older and it shows. I'm just glad he remembers me. I started to think about how all the teachers get older...their age doesn't stay the same after you leave the class room, they get older. I wonder if the school will even send out a letter to all of the old students...probably not. I would hate to visit that school only to find out my favorite teacher died and no one told me.

 

Other than that, nothing really important happened that year. I made new friends, had some move away, started a band with another.

Anyway,


Tomorrow is going to be sophomore year and maybe junior year.  We'll see.


Trish-Trish<3